Do ppl even read these?

Whatever, Lately I've been worryin' about financial troubles so I've the idea of a ko-fi (or somethin' akin to that) is crossin' my mind more n' more as I've been essentially let go from my editing work with the other job I have is my custodial job at a church, while it does pay my well enough it's not enough for me financially as I've been tryna look for a place to call my own, it don't help that Atlanta ain't exactly the nicest place for rent (Like 1.7k a month? For real??)

Anyways financial woes aside, updates on content.

ARTWORK

I'm not happy with my current state as an artist as I've felt like I've stagnated and I'll be damned to relearn those fundamentals tho I will have to eventually.

VIDEOS

I've had really bad executive dysfunction like tendencies when it comes to those, and also worried about the reaction to how people will feel about said videos, constant "What ifs* go through my head and I've been incredibly fearful of even gettin' a tiny ass sliver of information wrong.

I have the opportunity to finally make this a viable source of income and I basically have one MAYBE two chances IF I'm lucky

Moral of all this, I don't see myself livin' past age 30, let alone 25, weird as fuck non sequitur I know but really I just wanna crash out yfm?

or Just spend my days being a hermit.